Because You Live

Class barbeque today. The weather was absolutely perfect. In fact, everything was perfect, right up till 7pm, where everything just went downhill from there.

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart

It's the end of the world in my mind

Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call

I've been looking for the answer

Somewhere

I couldn't see that it was right there

But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe

Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help

Because you live, girl

My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again

'Cos of you, made it through every storm

What is life, what's the use if you're killed inside

I'm so glad I found an angel

Someone

Who was there when all my hopes fell

I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe

Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help

Because you live, girl(You live)

My world[my world] has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why

I carry on when I lose the fight

I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe

Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help

Because you live, girl

My world(my world) has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe

Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help

Because you live, girl('Cos you live)

My world(my world) has everything I need to survive

Because you live

I live

I live

-Jesse McCartney-

I am such an ass, to fall for you.

Why, why, why do I always fall for this kinda guy?!

Fucking hell. When things go wrong, they happen all at once at the same fucking time. I think it's the way God plays with ur fate. How cruel life is.

Let's just recap everything that got screwed up today:

-Thanks to my drunken state last night, I went to school feeling fucked up and with a terrible hangover.

-Accounts class went ok, but nothing much went in, so I feel super guilty.

-When the time came to buy the stuff for the barbeque, someone was feeling pissed that we were always the only two to do all the donkey work. So I was equally agitated cos I wanted everything to be perfect. But I have a nagging suspicion that I screwed up somewhere. Probably that I turn into a major bitch when I'm stressed that people don't fucking help out.

-I had to pay for everything. (and everyone forgot that they have to pay me back.)

-My face has sprouted 3 new gargoyle-like pimples.

-It was such a hot day that my makeup was completely ruined.

-The fucking cloned sheep keeps screwing things up for me and someone.

Whilst we're on this subject of the bloody cloned sheep, FUCK YOU MAN!!! Seriously, mind ur own damn bloody business! Fucking busybody! Who the fuck are u to tell me what to do?! Have u even looked in the mirror?! I don't give a flying fuck about ur damn opinions. Whatever. Stay the fuck away from me. And take a hint already! Everyone doesn't like u ok?! Honestly, of all the donkeys, u have got to be the biggest ass of them all. U SUCK, BIGTIME.

Whew. Ranting feels good.

Back to where I left off.

-This someone pays attention to other girl more than me, and obviously I hate it.

-I'm too chicken to tell someone I like him.

-Shisha makes my throat scratchy.

-I didn't get the Ernst and Young degree.

-I think someone's a little irritated with me for a reason still unknown to me. Maybe cos he's sick of my pasty moon face.

Sigh. Time to go off to dreamland. At least there the suffering ends.

Remember, boys and girls, sleep is a good thing. No sleep turns even the friendliest, fluffiest kitten into a hissing, scratching monster.