Well, looks like I freaked for nothing after all, Meiying. U can tell me "I told u so." now. I deserve it. This is so me. Making a mountain out of a molehill. Yup, that's me alright. Wonderful, huh? I should slap myself for my presumptuousness. (Is there even such a word?)

Always trying to think ahead of other people, to be one step ahead, thinking that I'm so damn clever. Yeah, well, no more of that crappy, nonsensical shit. I'm not hoping no more. There ain't gonna be no nothing for me.

Here's to me. Me and my stupid, fucked up heart.